Thought about myself. Don't pay attention

Fucking, own fault. Damn, still is sitting, and also mope. He had to repeat everything. No, you know.

Bitch, you knew that you couldn't write this test to normal mark. And why did hope so presently? You are just full stupid. I can't name it with another word. And why did you didn't write a lot of texts and testes? Is it so difficult? Hey, fool, couldn't you thought that you think that you ruin the test.

Hey, stupid, why are you wanting to cry!? You same not such stupid!? I hope.

How can you think now about something popular university? It's just illusion? Your plase in college. In anything stupid college. And you'll

be the worse person in the world. Yes, I'm so stupid and fantasy person.

So, this day was sounds like long and melody music. It was like many many stars, which flough all over me, was transparent. So awful.I couldn't catch them and tryed to hide from their in my headphones. I had't mood. Adam Lambert, who was listened today by me in mp3, screamed to me "What are you want from me". I don't know what I wanted. And I don't know what am I wanting now. I hadn't any mood. Sadly, but it's truth.

Can't understand what would I want to by to the final. What dress would I want to bye. Really don’t know. Also I don’t know what di I like, what I want to get from the life, what do I want generally.

So, It’s my problem. I don’t understand how should I solve it. I just will continue to live. Hah, that’s all)).

Some works which I did in Photoshop. Hope you'll like it.

"The heart wants what it wants. A person does not intend to complicate their lives - it just happens, and you do not intentionally and not to hurt people who love you. Just because sometimes it turns out."

Listen me, please...

Why life is so difficult?! Why there are such much expiriens of desteny? Life has so much questions which we can't
answer. And it's enrage. Really...

Hey, God, if you listen me, answer..... why.. why this life so difficult. What if I want to have happiness? What if
I want to see smiles of my friends? What if I don't want to see tears and sad stories of my friends? Don't you think that this cirs not so good for happy life? I think yes. Oh, please, make me and their feel happiness. I really don't
want to see them always sad and disappointed in myself. Hope you.

amen.

15:31

Oh, it's so nice day! Today was the day which made me smile. It doesn't matter what mood do you have.

Today I don't care how I am looking. Fine or so-so. It's the day whenI don't say "Oh, God..." when I looked in the

mirror.

It's the day when you don't want to listen depress or sad music. It doesn't matter what music I will listen. Just

such mood I having now.

I writing and sun is shining on the street. Wow, so perfect!)

21:44

So unusuall feeling when you speaking with stranger. It was pretty granny. She spoke with me in a bus. She said that

she had a birthday today. She is 75. I congratulate her). I understand, that she want to speak with anybody. It's so

sad when you haven't people who can understant you.

So, thinking that suprises of this day are over.

No, also I understood that my imagination is not so good. I think that I must to make it go up.

Oh God...

So strange to understand that all in balance. That all that was not such as you wanted (with something advantures or with some crazy days) are come to the end. That all that you have are fine. Just fine. Just. And all will be so present.. as much disgusted.. faugh!

My God, I want to come back! I hope you hear and listen me)).

Don't pay me attention, I just go mad))).

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And again I feel empty in my soul. And again I make me to say that I'm stupid fool. No, really?! How it can be twice!? All the whole thing in me. As I thought. I knew that all this will turn to this side. But why this!?
So stupid thought. And I want to sleep. Very tired. Today wasn't such important thing for feeling this fatigue. So, I don't know why it is in my soul and brains.. I want to think about something good, but why I want to cry? And why my tears don't want to go by my face? huh...
good night.
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How wouldn't this sound, I'll say: "I want to school".. Only there I can feel compliteness in my soul. Because there are such atmosphere. Unusual.

This disease will over me. I thin. It's not so good, yeah?

I hope that I'll get well to Monday.

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